Somewhere in Northern Europe, the colorful and warm café sharply
contrasts with the gray and sulky sky. By the time I laid down the bright orange cloth
bag (printed in white ‘WISC, Santa Fe, NM’) and took out Alberto Manguel’s book
Five Cities in Turkey, purchased in
Istanbul, the source of my life-generator dawned on me and begged me to be
written. I could visualize the essay about the things that I carry with me and
on me w/out ever intending to possess them. Why bother owning? I took off my
long claret winter coat with a hood, which found me in a second hand shop in
Athens last Christmas. My sailor beret has the same color but it winked at me
in Amsterdam at a shop called klein
berlijn (small Berlin!)
By the time, my latte arrived, I was having a ball with the
list and how much it tells about myself. My reading glasses are newish with a purplish
frame, the bright tone that I used to envy on my favorite female professor’s
eyes 20+ years ago. Oya Başak would
take them out of her purse and scream: “Mickey Mouse glasses!” My decorative
bookmark was sent by an Australian nun from Holy Meteora, near the town
of Kalambaka in
Greece. After meeting her at a monastery where she spent decades on the path of
Jesus, I wrote her a letter, and gave my temporary address in Victoria
University, Canada. She told me that the only way to communicate was
letter-writing. In my dark rectangular mail box, her light brown envelope sat
next to another one of the same size which was shipped from Bodrum, Turkey. The
signed book arrived also from the Aegean coast, only the other side. They looked pretty darn close to each other on the map from Canada.
I take a sip and continue with further inventory of my things:
My t-shirt is from Berkeley. It’s bright yellow, printed on the front is a big
smiley with a baseball cap, exposing the location: California, Berkeley in
black letters. I wear it to feel its energy. I slept in it last night but who
can know or would care about it in this café? My sweater is from Salvation Army
in Victoria, my navy-skinny jeans were dirt cheap too, purchased from the same
street but in a different store. My only accessories are a watch and pendant. I
have no idea from where I originally purchased the watch, but the straps are
relatively new so I remember. I got them in San Francisco on the Pride Day of
2017, June 26th to be specific! I reluctantly agreed on the beige
color because the store lacked the navy-blue, but I got used to them. I wonder
what my friend is doing right now but I am pretty sure that she is in SF.
My pendant is enchanted as its maker assured me: Flora picked
the nut-size ornamental pomegranate from Northern Cyprus and transformed it
into a pendant for me as a gift. Crossing paths with her in Istanbul was
magical since she is a nomad herself with no strings attached. Thus, on my
neck, I carry a real pomegranate whose value is to me more than any diamond can
have. Diamonds don’t feature in holy books or fairy tales unlike pomegranates. My baby-pomegranate has no polish or other
human intervention. This spiritual daughter of mine knows me well.
People can’t figure her out, they try to tone down her enthusiasm and dreams. Are they unconsciously bothered by even hearing them? Ignore them Flora,
dream big; true, you’re bound to be minority on this planet but you’re stronger
inside and you might as well enjoy it. You’re young and a magnet for miracles,
again, too much for laypeople. Missing one’s potential must be painful to face
in your presence so ‘you go girl,’ most whispers (behind) or warnings deserve
to be overlooked. Thanks for sharing my passion for used clothes and caring
about the planet. I hope we collaborate more in future and make this a better
world.
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